Monday, April 6, 2009


Today I finished up our paperwork for our dossier. I am only waiting for our I-600 approval to come in the mail and then I could notarize it, and send it off with the rest of the documents to be apostilled. I can hardly believe it!

I guess that because we are nearly done with our dossier, I have allowed myself to think more about the trip and going back to see Alexsey. It is very exciting to say the least.

I remember what our past trips to Russia and Ukraine were like and I wonder if they will be similar. On our very first trip to Russia back in May, 2005, we met a newlywed couple who was headed off to their honeymoon. At one time in my life, I would have been jealous of them because I was not going on an exciting trip with my new husband. I would have been jealous that I didn't have butterflies in my stomach, head over my heels, excitement of being a brand new bride--- probably the only bride on the plane.

But, I wasn't jealous of them.

Not at all. Because, what I was feeling at that moment was an even more powerful and intimate love for my husband than when I first married him. Afterall, we were about to board a plane never to look back, as we traveled around the world to meet two beautiful children God had chosen for us. Honestly, everytime we have traveled around the world to adopt, it has been the best honeymoon I could ever imagine.

And soon....... very soon, I am going to be traveling with him again.

For most people reading this, they just can't imagine how adopting can be such a memorable experience. Yet hopefully, other fellow adoptive parents can relate and testify that I am not crazy. Adoption is an amazing...... beautiful..... unforgettable...... close as you get to God experience this side of heaven.

It is just as amazing as giving birth to your child........ it is exactly like giving birth to your child.

Alexsey may not have been born of my flesh and blood, but he is very much a part of me, already. I know that I am not capable on my own of preparing my heart to feel the way it feels...... this is a miraculous thing that God does. Knowing this draws me all the closer to Him.

It makes me think how I have been adopted by HIM..... how all of us that want to look to HIM as our Father have been adopted by HIM, and it gives me goosebumps to think that HE feels similar to how I feel about Alexsey. That is incredible to me!


Jane said...

Great post. We felt exactly the same way. We loved being in Ukraine and had so much time for each other that it was like a second honeymoon. You'll have the kids with you this time though!!!! I am so glad things are progressing nicely. I'm jealous that you will be in Kramatorsk in beautiful weather, we've only seen it under snow!!!!


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Jennifer said...

I have to agree. Adoption is so amazing and I was always amazed how God worked along the way. God is good!

KelseyChristine said...

Congratulations on being one step closer to your sweet boy!!

Debbie said...

Amen! The Lord delights in adopting children into His family. I am humbled that He would allow me to be a part of it, too. And I rejoice when he brings another little one into an earthly family as a picture of how He builds His family.

You're getting sooo close! Maybe we'll see each other in Kiev. :-)

MoonDog said...

oh I remember that feeling! and when they brought my little precious in and put him in my arms, he wailed to be left with strangers and I wailed as would a new mother who has given birth. my heart was ready to burst with the joy of my new son. I so want to feel that again. now to figure out HOW.

Ross and Kate said...

I love what you have written here. You radiate for Christ and for your family. I am excited for you to get to Alexsey!

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Kelli said...

very beautiful!

Sheryl said...

Wow! THis post hits a cord in the mommy in me. Maybe He is leading me to adoption. We don't own our house, so I don't think we'll meet the criteria. Adoption by God is soo sweet.

David and Laura said...

I posted some of your posting and put it on my blog. I totally agree with your heart! You share your thoughts in such a clear way. Thanks for posting on the steps of your journey. Hoping your 171 comes soon!

Shari said...

One step closer! I am so happy for you! Could you answer a question? What's a dossier and how do you pronounce it?

Jodi said...

Amen, amen, amen to that!!

I know EXACTLY what you mean. I, at the moment, feel like I am doing the pregnancy "glow" thing, but it must be coming from my heart, not my horomones.

Chris said...

How wonderful that you're closer to bringing little Alexsey home!

I have to admit your post inspired me to post as well about growing our family through adoption. You are always inspiring!

Anonymous said...

This was all so well put. I remember holding my boys for the first time; it was a feeling like no other! I cried and cried as the caretakers asked me what was wrong. I could only say, "Nothing. I've just prayed for this moment for so long, it's hard to believe it's really happening". They smiled! I do not have biological children so it's nice to hear it from someone who does that it is the same feeling and the same love. I've always said that but many people doubt that I could really know. Maybe that's why God didn't chose to grow their families through adoption.

I also agree about feeling so close to your husband throughout the travel. That time together was amazing and SO much better than our honeymoon! We came home with so much more than our children!!!
Crystal Leighton