We are leaving in four days.
I am so excited-- but at the same time I have felt attacked by Satan himself. I am a little embarrassed to even admit, that yes, even I can't always be a strong pillar. He has filled me with so many questions all revolving around Alexsey's medical needs and whether or not we can care for him. This happened with Dennis-- and yet God carried us through all of them-- and now look at him! His medical needs are a very small part of our everday life. I know the same thing will be true of Alexsey, but honestly, it doesn't take away the fear of the unknown.
I just so want him to have as much of a normal life as possible-- and to enjoy all that the rest of my kids get to enjoy. I literally can't wait to see Alexsey doing the simplest things-- like playing cars with Dennis, coloring, eating his first fruit snacks, brushing his teeth with the little cute toothbrush I got for him.
Dear Heavenly Father,
You know my prayers, my concerns, my fears, and as I confide in you how inadequate I feel to take care of Alexsey, please know that I will continue to trust that you will always be right by my side. Please be with Alexsey always, and heal his precious body so that he can do all the things that he dreams!